So what have I been up to the last few months (or maybe year)?
Research. In other words – reading.
Big decisions were made about mid-year of 2011 for me, and now I am trying to make up for lost time.
Let me back track a little….
Jan 2009 took a huge break from teaching.
Then in June of 2010, I decided to jump into something I loved –training. I always felt at home in the gym. Like this is where I was to be, and didn’t mind coming to every day. I remember thinking that every day when I went to the gym – how I would love to be here everyday – life was telling me something and I ignored it.
In about 6 months, I had a full list of clients. I believe I was lucky. However, as my husband likes to put it – “You piled hay when the weather was warm”.
June 2010 to June of 2011 seem much like a blur, as between competing, training others, and family life I was very busy. Perhaps could explain my low placing (s) in fitness this year, as I was not able to balance my work with my home. My head was effectively somewhere else, and I would have rather been at home than at shows this year. As a side note: I am under no contract to compete – I choose to compete. Bottom line –> I had to accomplish a successful training business in less than a year, as I knew what was coming.
After the Toronto Pro show this past summer, I had a decision to make. I knew in my heart it was the right thing to do; however, my head was trying to talk me out of it. I was struggling between the stability of a ‘real job’ and my own desire to do something else.
Teaching was not what I had experienced, when I was growing up. I had amazing role models and teachers every step of the way throughout my elementary and high school education. I wanted my teaching to be ‘that’ kind of teaching. Fun, inspirational, friendly, and respectful.
The administration in my current school had changed, the type and quality of student I would experience changed. The next public English school in my area was at minimum of 45 mins drive each way , and I was not willing to do that. The mood of the school had changed – in a more electron type way.
It has been about 2 years since I have been on leave, and only now do I feel that the stress of the whole situation is starting to lift itself.
This was my life.
This particular adjustment falls under ‘big life changing moments’. I am still amazed at how long I stayed, as now that I am on the other side of me, I see things much clearer. You never really realize how much stress you are under until it is not there anymore.
There were times during that last year when I felt like I was starting over. So in my mind, if I had to start over it would be in something I had already been in love with my whole life.
Training. Being athletic. That was and still is easy for me.
Now I just do a different type of teaching. Teaching those how to take care of themselves, when they usually put themselves last on the list of ‘to do’. Showing them how to train properly, and make them confident about being at the gym. Showing girls that prepping for a show does not have to be their last show.
I have about 10 years of ‘stuff’ to catch up on.
Back to my research….:)